…breaks down a unit when there are elements of it that is used more than the other highly capable portions of the entire product. Think of your body for example. When you overuse some portions of your body more than other and not utilize the others as much…strength is gained in the one portion and lost in the other. Eventually this can cause a serious breakdown in the entire product. However, if the issue pertaining to the flaw in the system is never brought up, a resolution can never be addressed. Or if the issue is brought up, some are so far in denial that no one really sees what is right in their faces. Or when the issue is brought up by someone who actually does care…others tend to think that they are a mis-speaking simply because they refuse to actually acknowledge that the issue exists. It is bad when someone from the outside can see this discrepancy but the one (s) involved fail to see the issue.

I am coming to that realize in the job I am in, the bosses I’ve had have their preferences just like everyone does. And that is fine because we all do right? It becomes a problem when that preference affects the other members of the total package. It becomes a problem because just like that unused portion of the body, breakdown starts to happen. It has started with me. I absolutely love music but lately (the last year) I have really felt like my portion of the whole ‘body’ is less important than some and it’s not being used in a way that it could and should be used. I am starting to feel a directional pull…away from what I thought would be my job for the rest of my AF career. I want so badly to express myself in so many ways but for the past almost 7.5 of my 8 years in this job I feel like I have been ‘type casted’ into a certain type of thing. For the most part, I really love what I do…but there comes a point when one needs a change and I am at that point. I am so thankful for the opportunities I’ve had and will continue to be me and give the best ‘portion’ of me that I can; that will never change. But I wonder if my feelings of being pigeon-holed stem from me just wanting another way to express my love for music. I don’t know.

Some of us haven’t yet had a performance here in Panama but we have a few coming up which is nice. I hope they go well…I’m sure they will. We have some school performance which I’m excited about…the young’ins always seem excited to have music. I think Aaron and I may go to the “Comfort Inn” to play for the patients again because we do have at least a couple days where we aren’t going out. We shall see what the week holds. Actually we will be staying off the ship for a couple days because some of our back to back performances are pretty far away. Yippee! We are parked pier side here in Panama which is great because we can go out in the evenings and venture around this neat little pier area that has stores and bars and eateries. Sweet Freedom! LOL!

Thanks for stopping by….
Keisha